I’m really caught up with school now that my GCSEs are drawing near. I don’t dare to let down my guards. I don’t dare to take time off for myself. I’m scared. Afraid that I wouldn’t pass my Alevels and get into any local University. I don’t need encouragement - I’m good at pushing myself on. What I need, I suppose, is a breather. School’s overloaded with remedial lectures that end at 1700hrs everyday. In a way, it’s draining me of whatever energy I’ve had to begin with. I’m physically and mentally tired out. I can’t think straight, I can’t give clear explanations.

Having “suffered” for 16 months, it’d be a pity to give it all up, to throw my dreams away when I’m already so close.

My parents are the best. They’re my pillar of support, giving me endless encouragements, telling me to give my best shot. I’m actually glad that I’m going through this _____(insert own word), because it shows me how much my parents love me, and how they’ll always have my back.

Well I’m suppposed to be doing my Economics tutorial right now. I might be going on hiatus soon, but it’s not exactly what I have on mind. We’ll see.

I’m very into reading self-help books. I don’t really know if I can classify this book I’ve read recently as a self-help book, but I can’t think of anything else to call it. Anyhow, it’s about how to look at everything in a positive way, and how to catch the “happiness bug”, and be happy everyday. I guess after reading it I’ve been happier, so far. I haven’t felt miserable/sad/empty like how I always do when I’m really really bored at home. So I guess that’s a good thing

So my exams are finally over, and all I’ve been doing is to read my books and watch some shows. Talking about shows, the movie 21 is definitely worth watching. I think the whole story is cool. I still can’t believe it’s a true story? It’s a wonderful show, imo.

Besides which, I’ve also watched It’s a Boy Girl Thing which is quite an old show now, but since Singapore’s really slow and stuff, it’s just started showing in the theatres recently.

So instead of clearing up my desk and doing more productive stuff, here I am, wasting away my time. Well, it’s kind of my last “holiday” before my Alevels that’s in.. a few months. Soon, the school will start trying to stress us poor students out and do the countdown that every school does

I’ve kinda noticed this is a frivolous post. Before I end off, just a little something to ponder about.. Why is it that we can’t seem to feel upset when we’re smiling? Idk if it applies to you, but I’ve tried thinking about something sad while I was smiling, and somehow, I didn’t feel sad at all